Cameron's Life

-Crush waving at me- 

-Me melting- 

When he waved at me. 

My day = x1000000000000000 better.

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Right, well. If you frequent my blog ( which it have became somewhat inactive due to school… stuff.) Then you are likely to know my situation. If not, try to look back in my blog and find info about my life, as I am not going to repeat it for you. 

Today, was normal day, boring, even that my best friend wasn’t there. ( Y U NO COME, MARINA?!?!) Had entirely normal classes, up to History. My favorite class, only second to Law. We all sat down, started, and then he arrived a bit late, as usual. ( He as in AL.) I’ve noticed myself that I have been looking at him even more than before. I would have to struggle to make my face to not smirk or smile -everytime- I see him, walk past me, or when I see him, I guess. 

Well, normal class, but we got out early because we were ahead of other history class. ( A chapter ahead! Even though there is only 30 or less pages left for History to be finished.) So, I went to gym, for 20-min ish, since my mom got out work early too ( a good timing, or what?) So, I got off elliptical thing, took my backpack and went into changeroom, to change, as I always do. 

This time, I needed to go washroom, so I did and I returned… changing, and he arrived. Now, I haven’t seen him in changeroom for long time, at first I thought it was someone else that I know, then realization hit me when I looked at him ( his bottom) and back to my backpack and back, his underwear was changed. I only know one person who does that. Obviously, AL. Then I left, he was focused on doing something, he didn’t notice me, or so I think so, anyway. When I looked back to see him, my face just immediately smirked/smiled, without even thinking.

So, why I am -this- attracted to him? Sure, he’s good looking, friendly, I guess, but I barely know him at all, yet my body would randomly smile at him, or I would get feeling that all I want is to embrace him. ( In non-sexual way! Like a hug.) Hold his hand.. and whatnot. I could imagine future with him. 

But here’s the part that make no sense to me, maybe because of my inexperience in this area of life. I have seen tons of guys, that is so much hotter than AL. I would bang them, of course, I would date them, but… with any of these, I just… can’t imagine future with them. I don’t get these feelings to these guys, at least not at levels of feelings -everytime- I see AL, it just skyrockets when I see him. ( AL) My body would uncontrollably smile at him, get these feeling to just walk up to him and hug him for no apparent reason.

What this is? Why I am feeling this? Admittedly, I have been trying to get over with him, as it seems that he isn’t interested into me. But, my body tell me otherwises, my brain doesn’t want to forget him, to ignore him. I don’t know… I guess seeing him, just makes me happy, and makes my day. We’ll see what happens after I graduate. It’s when everything will change.

Cameron.